Clarity

Sometimes you need to stop moving and just breathe in order to hear what your body and soul want and need you to do. I did that today. I just sat in my apartment all day long in quiet meditation -- not really, I was watching Firefly all day! But, my point is that I stayed in and concentrated on me today. I shopped online, purchasing some much-needed Crate & Barrel furniture and some goodies from Sur La Table. I may not be able to cook in this place yet, but it doesn't mean I can't appreciate a couple of new toys.

But in this day at home I also realized that I need to go get my little doggie and bring her here with me. I wanted to give myself some time to be alone and free of responsibility before I got her. I also thought I should be in a more stable situation, with a job and a schedule. But as I live here I just feel alone and sad without her. She brings purpose to my life. I love taking care of her. I love walking her and living my life to her wacky little schedule. I love cuddling with her and sleeping with her. She's the cutest damn thing I've ever seen and I won't spend any more time without her.