Hmmmm, pondering some things here.
This guy I've been seeing for a couple of months now is leaving in about six weeks. It's a relo for a new job. He told me about it on our first date. I went into this thing knowing that we only had a few weeks together. I kept talking about it very matter-of-factly and tried not to see any kind of future with him.
However, the more intimate you get with someone, the more you fall for them. The other night I looked at his sleeping face next to me and smiled and then said "Oh, Shit!" in my head. Shit, I'm falling for him. There's a chance the l-word could be applied, but I'm sure as hell not tempting fate and uttering it, even in the most academic sense. Crap, what now? I ask myself. How do I turn this off? What if I don't want to? What if we can somehow transcend the miles in some form or fashion? I know, I know, you can't. Long distance relationships never ever work -- and quite frankly, I'm not the long distance relationship type of girl. I like and need my man to be here with me now giving me the emotional and physical support and connection I desire. That's just me. So, where does this leave me?
Well, I'm trying to take it in stride, accept what life has to offer, and be thankful that I've found someone to spend at least this finite time with.
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I can't do LDR's either, I need to be able to touch the girl I am seeing...or even see her for that matter.
Nut like you said at least you got to experience it with him...no matter how bittersweet the pill.
The only problem with spending a finite time with someone who thereafter won't be there is that it diverts your attention. With only a cul-de-sac at the end.
Bittersweet (and mostly bitter) is that pill.
You know, I'm getting that "bitter pill" part -- it's really hard to do this. I just have to keep telling myself it's worth it, right? I mean, what can ever come of a long distance relationship?
Humn. Well I don't agree with the "long distance relationships never ever work" thing - they can and do. But you both have to really really want to.
I moved back from a European city to be with English Ex. Ok, didn't work out in the end but that wasn't anything to do with distance.
Well, maybe being in an LDR myself (incidentally also with a bloke in LA) has skewed my views optimistically, but I've realized it's more about letting yourself get immersed in the feeling, however momentary, than feeling tragic about the future.
But frankly, doesn't a little tragedy always add depth to a romance anyway?
P.S. Found you through Indiana. I like your stuff. Will be linking, if that's okay.
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